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A good weekend…
November 2, 2008, 10:10 pm
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In my entire 28 years of living, I have never lived alone. I’ve either lived with my family, with hubs, or with roommates. On Friday, hubs left for Vegas with our brother-in-law and another friend. I’ve spent the weekend cleaning the house, cooking, relaxing and generally just enjoying the time to myself.

Yesterday, Saturday, I cleaned the house. And I don’t mean like light cleaning. No, I mean I CLEANED the house. Dusted, mopped, swept, vaccumed, moved stuff into the garage that has been needing to get moved for the last few months, and made the place look decent again. I am fairly certain we’re having Christmas over here (Good God in heaven, I can’t believe I’m even contemplating the holidays already), so if I can just keep up the general cleanliness, it won’t be a mad rush to do a ton of stuff.

Last night I went with some friends to see “Zack and Miri make a porno.” It was really funny and one of Kevin Smith’s better movies that don’t have Jay & Silent Bob in them (although Jason Mews has a great role and the words “Dutch Rudder” will never mean the same thing to me again). Afterwards, I came home, had a glass of wine, set the clocks back and went to bed early.

This morning I slept in and finished up the rest of my laundry. I made a turkey chili that spent the day in the Crock-Pot, melding and ended up being super delish. I spent a few hours over at my best friend’s house, spending some time with her and my god-daughter, which was really nice. As I was eating dinner I got a text message from one of my closest friends. Her boyfriend proposed tonight while they’re in New York City (congrats Lisa, if you’re reading this!), so I’m really excited for her.

I have been doing a lot of thinking over the last few days. It’s been really nice having a few days to myself. I don’t have to worry about anybody else. I have the whole house to myself. If I want to watch hours of “The West Wing” on my DVR, I can without worrying if it will annoy the hubs. I can make whatever food I want to without having to worry about if it will make hubs ill. I have also spent time wondering if this is what I will face if anything happens and hubs’ health takes a turn for the worse. Is this what it is like to be alone? 

I suppose that more appropriate musings would be these…what is it going to be like to be alone for the first time in my life? What will it feel like? What will it entail? Will I be okay? 

Enough musing…I’m going to finish watching “Family Guy,” and take a shower. Night.

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Welcome to my life, sweetie.

Taking your DH’s health out of the equation, I will say this: living alone rocks, most of the time… I lived alone for 4 years after college and loved every second of it. Then I got a roommate for a year, and then Chris and lived together for nearly 4 years. Adjusting to living alone after being USED to living with somebody was harder, but now that I’m getting back into the swing of the things, I’m enjoying it — I tend to make a lot of plans so that I’m not alone too much, but I’ve found a sense of empowerment again in taking care of this place by myself.

Your situation would obviously be different because living alone again would mean something bad about your DH. And that will be huge and hard and difficult, but in a way, finding that sense of independence and empowerment might help you get through it.

Love,
Jess

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